The future. Uncertainty. The great unknown. The road towards the mission field has been filled with all of these. And although we often try to take away, or decrease, the uncertainty that inevitably appears in our lives through various methods (consistency, insurance, savings, making elaborate plans), it always remains, constantly reminding us that we are not in control.
But what a hard lesson to learn. Personally, I want to feel like I am in control; that somehow I call the shots; that I have the most important say in my future. And right now, I personally want to know what the next five, ten, or fifteen years on the mission field will look like. I would like to know the people that will come to the Lord during our time in Lima; I would like to know exactly what ministries in which I will be involved; I want to know.
But God keeps reminding me that the future is not our to know through, and in the midst of, the uncertainty that surrounds our journey. That the details are in His hands. That my role is not to be the one with the answers or the correct path. My role is to be the one that follows where the Lord leads. I am supposed to be one who completely put my trust and faith in the God who never fails nor is unfaithful. I am called to walk by faith.
We live by faith, not by sight. – 2 Cor. 5:7
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. – Prov. 16:9
